During the past few weeks I have been busy running my son to the college and various other places for appointments and meetings regarding his college transition. During these appointments, I often found myself wanting to say, “Stop looking at me!”
This thought is not directed at the people S is meeting with. This thought is meant for him. I don’t mean this in a nasty way. I mean this in a “You are 18 years old, and they really don’t want to talk to me or hear from me. Stop looking at me when they ask you a question. It is a question you can answer.”
Every time we leave a place I bring up this observation to him. He doesn’t realize he’s doing it but he does it EVERY time. I stress the fact that he is just weeks out from starting college; therefore, he is in a position to answer these questions for himself.
This is part of his transition, and I get that. For 14 years, he has looked to us to answer questions for him. We have been working on this handoff for a few years. He needs to accept that he is now an adult. We will always be there to support him; however, he has a voice, and it needs to be heard whether he is answering questions or advocating for himself.
Throughout the years, we have had to redirect questions about S to him rather than to us. Questions like:
“What is his name?”
“What is his address?”
“How old is he?”
Now, we need to redirect him to answer the questions without looking at us. He’s getting there. It will take a little more time.
Heading off to college is a scary prospect for him. I get that. He told me, "I'm just looking for confirmation." I understand that if it's a question that he's unsure about the answer; however, he has been doing it for every question.
He just needs to stop looking at me especially if I’m on the couch with chocolate.